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Monday, June 30, 2008

(Pardon me for vulgarities in this post: Really unhappy now)

My Sucking life! Can't you see?!

At the moment, 7.01pm, my mother is screaming into the phone. Screaming at my grandmother about my father. My poor father. They are speaking in Hokkien as though I won't understand.

"When it comes to new year, he is not allowed to celebrate it with us! If I sees him I'll tell him, his just an outsider! His not fit to be in there!" My mum said. (The place we celebrate new year is at my mother's mother's (grandmother) place) Her voice even overpowered my blasting music.

Who does she think she is? That is not even her house and does she has the rights to chase my father out? MY FATHER! Besides, he has every right to stay as the title of my father! Yes, he comes home late. Late? Why?! Because to earn money for this family! That little earnings you (mother) have can support us?! NO WAY! YOU DEFINITELY CAN'T!

Both my sister and mother persist that my father does not care about this family neither does he done anything to this family. NO!

To: My sister, don't really think so. (Don't treat me like one too)

When you were small, who provide you with the milk powder? Isn't that money?

When you grown up a little, who provide you with the school fees? Isn't that money?

When you gone into secondary school, your pocket money? Isn't that money too?

When you go out with friends, the money you spend? Isn't that money?

All this small money gathered together can be counted in thousands. Maybe more than that. Imagine yourself without Daddy. Isn't that a disaster? 那也算是一种贡献呀！

To: My mother, the one that hate my father. (Don't know for what reason)

When you go out, the money you spend sometimes is paid by him. Isn't that money?

And all the whens I can think of. I don't want to waste my saliva talking to you people anymore. 那也算是一种贡献呀！

That's only ONE PART of my SUCKING LIFE! >:[

saw the rainbow @4:10 AM

Friday, June 27, 2008

Just which area do I have confident in?
Oral? Perhaps in the reading area...
Compo? Not really. I find it hard to improve on my language/content.
Compre? Perhaps 14/20? A little more practice will do. :]
Cloze passage? Usually I score about 8 - 9/15. Maybe a strategy will help?
Synthesis! 10/10. I can't afford to make any mistakes at this point of time!

Out of 200, I only have 43?! Oh gosh! I really have to work hard! Very hard!

saw the rainbow @7:46 AM

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Why does MC has to put me in the 'world' of boys?! I simply hate this stupid arrangement. You can see how irritating boys can be!

Besides, they stink after recess. (No offence) Everytime after recess, I have to bear the stinky smell of them if its English lesson - some boys only. You may see me moving my chair all the way until my hair was hooked by the window. I was trying to move away from the smell! It made my lessons horrible and made my life stink.

Oh please! MC, let me live on my normal life. I can't possibky sit there for the next semester, I will die! Please...

(Horrible world..)

saw the rainbow @7:29 AM

This is currently my second blog post for my brand new blogger account with new skins and new posts. I really hope that one day, I can really get rid of this laziness thing. I felt so dissapointed with myself today, again. I on my computer and I went into Club Penguin which I usually hate.

I am so dissapointed with myself as I would rather use that time to play than to finish my homework or read more resources for my compositions. I could even practice my oral! But I chose not to. I chose to play.

I must really try my best to concentrate on what I am doing and fend off all the disruptions. I must also treasure all the precious time, I have wasted almost 1 or 2 weeks time in my holidays already. Wasting a minute is like wasting a mark.

(Another issue today on the next post. Coming up...)

saw the rainbow @5:56 AM

Monday, June 23, 2008

The June holidays had passed by quickly. It may be weeks but if felt like seconds. My June holidays wasn't a perfect holiday which could let us relax and slack. On the 1st day of the holidays, my mind was totally and completely shut down.

But as days goes by, I realised that I only have a few more days to complete my homework and its less than months to my Prelims. I realised that I need to buck up. The whole Singapore is running the race, but I was way behind, singing a tune as I walk past some that are slacking more than me. This is when I found out that I have to rush on. If I want to achieve, I must sacrifice. Sacrifice my playing time, sacrifice my time where I used to relax.

If you ask me what have I achieved, I can say its a small tiny black dot compared to those in 6A. I really regret spending my holidays doing the homework thinking that it is a chore. Homework can be a form of revision, recap on what you learnt. Like what Queen said, there is no use crying over spilt milk.

But one thing, I know I achieved it. Maths, I found out how I could solve a few maths questions that I usually hate or did not know how to do. As for science, I found what they have thought a little bit same as what MS had taught us, therefore, I don't think it was a kind of achievement.

I felt that I have achieved something people will think that it is a small achievement but I think it is really huge for a lazy person like me. I finally managed to kill my addiction to a online game called habbo. I kept telling myself it is useless and to concentrate on my work. Although I failed a few times but I picked myself up and continued my work.

What I felt proud of myself is that I quit that habit of multi-tasking. Once, my mother went out with her friends and usually I would be playing computer then, I typed the word 'hab' in the URL space and i stared at it for 10 minutes. "Habbo is useless i thought? Why am I playing it?" That is what I asked my self. I pressed backspace and went back to my work. In a short period of time, I finished it. I realised that I can finish my work faster if I concentrate hard on it. That's is my current greatest achievement I think.

Actually I could have done alot but I did not. I could have spent the time I am staring at the computer screen watching some useless videos to do some Maths, Science or even English revision. I should have done that! If time could really turn back, I would really treasure even a second that I missed standing at the door, peeping at the television.

What I did not do? My revisions! I kept saying: "Argh! Boring subject... See you tomorrow then! No, next week maybe." I wish there is really a time machine but too bad, there isn't.

To be frank, if I work hard these two weeks, I will be alot more 'powerful' than what I am in Term 1 and 2 the slacking me.

Message from my StephJie: Study hard! Jiayouus! I support you.

saw the rainbow @5:06 AM